Mixed Emotions ?

Yoz frens back again... this time round i am troubled by my own emotions or feelings....

Curious if anyone of u guys ever had this wierd feelings that ur close frens become like stranger n u find that stranger feels like frens instead? Ever realise that the world seems so fake and even close frens u claim u would die for can seem like stranger? Feeling of void and dun noe who u can depend on or trust ? Well i am kinda feeling this way and i haf a very strong feelings to avoid meeting my frens.... Dunoe wats wrong n wishes anyone who had similar experience to share wif mi ur insights. Instead i haf the urge to meet up wif frens who i had only met a few times only.... Am i going crazy due to the stress the society is giving me or issit due to the sleepless nights i have been having...... ??

By the way... i am also feeling very isolated rite now rite here. Even though i am back to the shift i wan... nutting feels rite. Even though i am with my buddies but they changed.... They haf become real slack... i cant work with them @ times.... Y did everyone become like ORDed mood. Dun everyone wan to ord without extras???? but from the way some of them r doing their duties.... seems like someone is bound to sign extraz.....

NEWS NEWS NEWS
HARTFORT is collapsing soon. 8 storeys of soil r loose now.... Juz need 2-3 more days of heavy rain n CAB will have a castrophere. Lets hope it happens so that the zero accident records can be reset again... Wahahaha. Wat a lame thing FDS is capable of... Seems like our officers are all so brainless.... Always spend $$$ on meaningless stuff like the kerb instead on our wellfare.... Now also heard new rumours that 50% of the new intake will be given to other bases... Well done ! CAB FDS is going to die... i will die laughing if that is real cos the manpower will not be sufficent to entertain the wishes of our officers.... THATS FOR SURE..... nutting else for mi on this issue... So long over and out ......

Tons of FURY to be released.....

Well... This post is not for christian nor the faint hearted because it contains explicit scenes(Described) and TONs of vulgarities.... Her goes....

1. We got to go to AETI auditorium for a bloody time wasting safety talk tomolo for WAT FUCK ! Watever ideas we raised up will be entertained with some lame excuses accompanied by MAJOR rank. Thus all ideas will be void... Its juz a formality we have to go thru so that they have something to show on their REPORT CARD !!!! They couldnt care less whether we die of not... DO S3 or OC or CO noe that each shift is only make up of 14 personnel ? Bet they dun....

2. We dun bloody have a MAZDA 3 nor a LANCER which we can drive there.... GOT to WALK all the bloody way to AETI and sweat ourselves out on the first dae of shitty mounting....

3. Wasting our precious dismounting time by choosing such a faraway place and we only have so little time with our parents and love ones!!!! They themselves have 8-5 job... Of coz would like to waste time chatting with us... so they can slack @ their desk.... BUT THATS OUR DISMOUNTING TIME !!!!

4. Wat the hell is JJ doing by getting all the shitty man power ??? Den giving all those power ones to shift 3... SO HUMJI.... use rank throw 7 extras so easy... dun even dare give us off for 4 days of mounting... dun even dare to whimper when daniel say something.... How to fight alongside him.... i rather chose hamtaro as PC....

5. Specs taking away the points system like they OWN US ! Wat the hell... do they bloody hell noe that its our only way of getting OFF !!! Now juz one stoopid dumbo spec say lazy to keep track and then gave a whole lot bunch of excuses den try to cancel away without even consulting us or informing us... Wat the hell.... Cant even noe simple paper work like this and always wan us to do 4 duties like its nobody bisness... FUCK THEM ! Some real shitty specs they are... All ah guaz.... Trying to slack and wan us to be garang so that they can show off to their susperior that their way of handling man is good. FUCK THEM !!!!!

Sorrie to all who read my post.... Kinda of vulgar but i am really pissed !!!!

Expectations ???

Hi to all my readers and frens.... today i wishes to ask some qns n hope u guys who read it can send mi a msg.... lemme noe wats ur answer....

1. would u expect a fren to haf the standard u set of urself ?
2. would u expect a fren to do something u would do for him ?
3. would u or would u not lie to a fren so that some things would not be so complicated? (white lies)
4. would u indugle everything to your buddy and expect the same ?
5. would u ever keep a fren in the dark of a fact juz becos he din ask ?

Thx for those who is going to reply mi in advance.... Juz curious since some of my frens commented on me being over suspicious of people.... Thus like to noe how the most of u think.... maybe i am really too suspicious of people....

BAD BAD WEEK !

First we got to be recalled... den we haf to mount 4 days and during our 2-2 ! All the 3 2-2 of ours KENA EATEN !!! and we r stuck in camp. Den we realised that sun which shd be our off will be cancelled also !!!! Wat rotten luck we have. Had intended to go marina bay on sun to watch fireworks and some stars thats coming to singapore yet now all my planning are gone !!! STOOPID OC, CO and S3 !!! inconsiderate bastard who only care about themselves. I dun see them staying in camp with us when they say its HIGH ALERT ! shdnt they stay in camp so that they can react in case of anything???? NO NO NO !!! they r at home fucking their wives and gfs !!!! Slacking @ home while their man suffer and all they do is juz call n say 100% CHECK !!! wat the fuck... din even come down to flight to say and wayang somethign to their man so as to pacify us.. FUCKING lame OFFICERS we have. All we get is maybe one day off for all this SHIT !!!!
Back home... Heard from my fren his dad got "food pipe" cancer and is in the 3rd stage oreadi... He got to quit his studies in aust and come back.... QUIT after 1-2 yrs of studies.... All the $$ n time put in wasted. And to be diagnosed only at 3rd stage. I shall pray for his dad health and hope he gets well soon.
Another bad news from someone in FDS. Heard that there will be a OPs east hawk in nov and thats when i am clearing my leave ! Heard that we will be recalled and no leave will be compensated... WAT the fuck !!! i hate the lunar 7th MONTH !!! and to think that we had to prowl during our 4 days mounting... FDS-Field Defence Squadorn (Changi Air Base) SUCK REAL TIME !!!!!!
Hope i can bring some happy news to my loyal readers next time.... so long... qiaoz !

Bad Start to the lunar 7th month !

Hiz guyz... i am back again after 2 weeks... hehehe... sorry for the long wait as i am too busy and dun haf anything to update actually. Well tonite is the first day of the lunar 7th month and wat a good way for my camp to start off with a BANG. Yes you guess it a car accident. A 1.5 tonner collide with a truck and causes 3 serious injuries and the rest haf to receive outpatient treatment. Resulting in a whole shift taking 2-5 days ATT C !!!!. And whats install for my shift.... yes RECALL !!!! yes we r being recall to do duties in their stead... Sian sianz.... mounting on a weekend so suddenly.
Well luckily managed to get good news 10 mins ago regarding my campmate edwin who had earlier been said to haf been feeling numb on the lower half of his body. And calling him 10 mins ago realised he is back on his feet and is resting @ home. At least is some luck shining on us still.
Hope nutting worse could happen to us as we r so low on manpower already and yet all this shit happen.
Bad news for my god sis as she failed her driving yesterdae. Bad news as my foot rot is returning. Bad news as i cldnt play my LOD anymore.... Man i hope lady luck could shine on us soon for the rest of the month... Well till i haf other things to update guys... Seeya
Stay Young, Healthy and HAPPY always....