Life is GOOD

Well kinda busy with camp this past 2 weeks with the high alert thingy going on in camp. Well even though life is hectic, life is GREAT as i am back in shift 1 with my buddies.... Life is more normal in here and i am enjoying every moment of it. Everything is going on fine except that i have been cheated of $150 by someone my buddies shd noe who.... and also i KNOCK MY BLOODY van again... Juz a sand size dent but still it hurts me. Only come to prove what a lousy driver i am to miss the small kerb by the roadside.... Heard the reverse sensor beeping n i stop way b4 the sensor say its hitting something yet i brush against the kerb... darn lousy sensor.....

Well then again the normal common qns pop up on my head after i read a blog "http://www.endlessrealm.blogspot.com/". The gal inside is only 18 yet making out n changing bf like its nobody business.... Go read it... kinda sexy but a very different conception from how i look @ life. Kinda make me wonder how come they can pet or change bf so easily where else i can even find a gf.... Had been a loner for 24 yrs or shd i say a failure for 24 yrs? hahaha.... Makes no difference i guess. Din even hold a gal hand b4 in my whole 24 yrs of worthless life. Juz a lame guy wasting oxygen in the world. Am i that lousy a guy? Y the gals i like always had the image of another type of guy ? Am i really alien to the gals ? I admit i am not handsome but not the the extend i am ugly rite? I dun smoke, i dun drink, i dun gamble n i try my best not to use vulgarities... yet i am juz nwo the one.... People ard me fuck ard,,, smoke, take pills, gamble up to 4-5 digits yet they haf TONS of gals and gfs.... Is that what the modern gal wan? a bad boy ? haiz.... Y Y Y? Y E S yes933..... wahahahaha..... i am bored.... no answer for me..... juz a silent isolation. A Quiet peaceful question that will pop up everytime i walk pass a couple.... Now u guys noe y i HATE orchard? Cos there r couples everyware.... i juz dun understand ware i go wrong. Aint i romatic enuff for those who wan romactic ??? I tried being the romactic guy for her yet she rejected me 4 times.... Try being her fren.... only call me when she needs my help. Never a call juz to chat or say hi.... A very good spare tyre i am to alot of gals out der.... i really dunoe wat to do anymore... i am disgusted with my life... I wan to work n earn money.... wan to use the money travel the world.... cos i can no longer feel love in this world.... Love is a cover up for $$. with $$ you have everything without... u r a goner..... Thats y i spend $800 on myself this mth
hahahahaha. Had a great time redoing my room... now my room is a real paradise i tell u ....... Seeya guys soon