Loner Novel of One Sided Love Part 1

It all started when i just completed O Level...Having completed all my primary n secondary education in a ALL BOYS schoolI guess pleasing a ger or getting a gf was not in my mind at tat time.What's impt to me are BUDDIES and soccer, basketball n scouts...

I was working in a warehouse as a warehouse assistant... doing odd job... pulling pallets, stacking boxes n boxes of stuff...Male working environment... nutting special...
One day a new colleague came along... SHE came along... A ger my AGE... THE only one female in our office and the only one with 1 yr age differnce.Well to me juz a average jane... No feelings... no "plans"... Everything go on as per normal...
but unknowingly.. as the day went by.. i started to care MORE abt her... SHE would chose to skip her lunch n went to sleep in one corner in the WAREHOUSE RACKS !I would den use my own money n buy her food n get her to eat it...She love fruits juice especially QIN CAI which i hate.. but for her i drank it anyway...
Slowly as she started to work OT, I will try to work till late to spend time with her also...Sometimes i will wait for her den walk her home n myself spending precious $$$ i earn to get a cab home(midnite).

Then there was one colleague... a guy 7 yrs older than her... She always seems to do wat he does n seems to admire him...i was jeolous.. i didnt noe y at that time but i felt jeolousy...Still i confined in tat GUY n even told him i think i like her....He told mi wat i shd do since i like her....
Den i started asking her out... We will go shopping n it seems i feel happy spending money on her...(YES YES i m a chai tao)....

Den we had a movie together.. the only one movie i had with her... WATER BOY...Everyware we go, i would hail a cab.. i didnt wan her to take bus as she seems tired...Thinking back.. its so stoopid.. maybe taking bus would create more time for mi ...

One day while chatting over the phone with her.. she mention she would like to have sushi for breakfast...I made some excuses over the phone and hang up... rushing to the supermarket @ 9+... i managed to made it in time...Bought her some sushi and some fruits so i can make fruits juice for her...Den the next day @ 6am.. i cycle to her hse...Paging her... she didnt replied...Keep paging her but yet still no reply... Getting impatient as i had to work i try paging her even more...Still no reply... In the end i waited 2 hours b4 i get a reply... She was sleeping n cldnt get up even though i nearly busted her pager...She came down n i handed her the breakfast... without saying much stuff i rush off to work..Boy was i LATE... n people who noes me noe i am not the type of guy who show up LATE n i HATE people who r late. Or should i say not GOOD TIME KEEPER...That was the first time in my life i was late...

It wasnt until 3 mths lata on her birthday...I folded 1999 stars... 512 are made of straws... 1487 are paper, 5 cranes and 18 seagull... 15/08/1999The stars are kept in a basket held by a teddy bear... At the very bottom, i laid down perfumed scented flowers pedels...At her void deck,,, in a small hut like resting area. I laid a table cloth...With 2 champangue glass and a bottle of sparking wine. i laid the cake and turn on the discman in the background playing KENNY MUSIC.Den juz before midnite i asked her down... She was shocked by wat she saw... @ least tats what i feel n tats what she claim...I presented her with a bunch of flowers n some other gifts which also includes necklance n earrings...Den i sing her a birthday song at the stroke of midnite...After which i took some photos...

After finishing the cakes, the photoshoot n the chatting... i decided to send her home...But at the lift.. i suddenly pop the question as she was about to turn ard..."Will you be my gf? " There was a momentary pause... den she reply...she said "I m sorry... i have a bf already"...Devestated.. i lost my calmness n asked "i didnt realise... y u never told mi abt it b4? "She said "its only recent... Juz LAST WEEK... Its HIM (the 7 yrs older guys i confined to)... he asked me to be his gf"...

AND TAT BLOODY GUY IS A TWO-TIMER... he had a gf for dunoe how many yrs already... yet he wanted her....

Ohz.. okie... i m sorry... u sleep early....I turned n walk away...Tears brimming in my eyes...Tat day.. i didnt take a cab home...I walk home with tears streaming down...I quit 10 days lata...Everytime i see her or HIM i juz tear.. i cldnt stand it...I tink my supervisor knew...That day.. i realise what a broken heart felt like...

That day..i lost my soul...I didnt told her i quit... i juz left...