"You think too much"

Well "you think too much" is a common reply i got from most people who read my post in here or my nick in msn... CAnt deny the fact that i do think too much @ times but how well does the people ard me noes abt my life ? Even the closest fren of mine doesnt even noe i repainted my room until a few days ago.... I appreciate them trying to calm me down by saying that. But some times i din think too much.... its the truth. Take this for example... i wrote "Y is everyone ignoring me" in my msn nick and some of my frens msg mi that i think too much... In any case they havent even ask mi wats wrong n they commented that i think too much... Well... i haf like 5 -6 "friends" of mine whom i try contacting via hp, sms,email, frendster mail for like 1-2yrs yet i got ZERO reply from them... Is that wat i call ignoring me? or i really think too much ? they r juz too busy to type a simple sms or email to reply me? Well guess people ard me really dunoe me well enough... Guess nobody in this world ever will. Cos even though i try to be as truthful as i can in my blog... i complain alot to some of my buddies... Yet there is still a big portion of me thats is bottled down.. HIDDEN from the world... that may be the reason y alot of people think they noe me but in fact i am NOT ME. I am juz another hyprocric who think he have alot of frens... Guess that one reason y i am losing so many "frens"....
I also realise a fact that wateva u can do for a friends doesnt really mean that wat he can do for u. The world is a unfair place. U can never get back 100% of wat u gave out. Best u get back 75%. Maybe its a one sided view from me but i do hope to see some comments from people who read my blog abt this thingy....
Well... i am kinda in a mess rite now... dun even noe wat i wanna write anymore... feel so fuddup n so worthless. I guess i am a attention seeking guy who really need alot of attention... Cant spend my day lazing ard with no companionship cos tat will kill mi... But @ the same time i cldnt get any "frens" to meet up... Seems like its only me who is the free one to accompany whoever need companionship whenever is needed n not the other way round... I always try to make frens for frens who need company or help. But guess when i needed it... None is available... They r juz plain busy i guess... i shdnt think too much. Its juz a coincidence that out of 10 times i ask they r busy 10 times.... Its juz another coincidence whenever i dun ask them out... they r very free,... HAHAHAA... THATS LIFE.... I am thinking too much....again....