Feelings...

Date: 04/10/2005
Time: 4.35AM
Weather: Raining....

Havent been blogging for a while now... have been busy in camp and some personal stuff. Got in touch with some poly mates and celebrated one bdae.... Never had such a good time for a long long time.... Feeling of companionship... Was standing @ the window moments ago looking or shd i say staring into the open space.... Was feeling the cool breeze and was thinking suddenly again of the same old qns... What does it feel to be in love....?? I never tried it... never tasted it... But y do i yearn for it? Isnt really stuff that u cant get taste better? Y is there a urge for lvoe when u have never try it?
Well i know i am a problematic person.. can say i really dunoe how to enjoy my life.... I am so bloody fortunate as compared to millions out there.... I haf got good features... not a handicap and i am not a idiot... yet i am still complaining now n den... But i suppose human r really curios am i not rite? hahaha
Friends? Is there really such a word call friends? Is there really such a thing ? Or friends only appear when they need something from u ? such as companionship? haiz.... i wonder....
Nothing in this world seems trustable anymore.
To be true if i cant stand the sight of someone... but he is my higher authority..do i haf to put up with him... Cant we be trueful n tell him straight in the face he sux ? and cant he be graceful enuff to accept the fact we r honest with him? hahaha... Life would be better if everything is black and white wouldnt it? Y grey...? Crap i am going mad.... Muz be the time... 4am n i cant bloody get down to sleep..... Something is not right....
One last thing i feel so strongly about NS. If its all abt rank... den y do officers give face to warrant officers? If they look @ age den y cant my bloody kiddos PC give face to me? A old man in NS !
wahahahaha
Well juz complaining today... hope u guys out der who read my blog enjoy ur life and dun be like me think so much. I am juz a idiot making myself feel miserable....