My One Sided Love Life (Part I)

It was just after my O levels... I graduate from Montfort and it is an ALL boys school. Never ever tasted love.... Managed to get a job working @ ATI a japan company doing warehouse. Was doing well @ the job for a month or so until a new clerk came along. She was also working while waiting for poly... It's the 1st time in my life i have to work so closely with a ger... and i muz admit i was slowing but surely attracted to her. Slowly by the day i was getting more n more concerned about her... At lunch when she is tired and choose to sleep instead of eating i will get nervous and will get her food with my own pocket money. I wouldnt want her to pay me back. Day ater day, it become a routine... I am willing.... Truely... Maybe i am juz stoopid but i am really willing to do everything for her since the 2 mth i met her. I started to walk her home everyday becos she work OT everyday until midnite. I was very happy becos i TOT i had chances with her. Everyday i would leave home @ 6am and reach home by 1-2am... On weekends we would also meet up to go out once in a while... but most of the time we would be doing OT. This goes on for like 2 mths more until May 17th... which is the eve of her bdae.
I asked my fren for help.. I lay the table with table cloth @ the void deck of her house... In those small pavilion... @ the side i place 2 speakers which i had kenny G music playing. Then i lay the cake and the presents and 2 wine glass on it. I had brought champage for her. Then the present includes 17 items becos she is 17th. then i had a basket filled with scented dry flowers peddings and stars which i made for her... In total i had folded 1999 stars, 5 seagulls and 18 cranes for her... That represented her Birthday. And i ask her down @ just b4 midnite and gave her an unforgettable fairy tale bdae which till now she said is her best. But to this near perfect bdae i made a stoopid mistake. I told her i love her... i asked her to be my gf... but i never expected her reply... She told me... she was going steady with my colleague.... A guy who is 8 yrs her senior... I never knew that as that guy was my buddy @ work. I never expected that but i still had to put on a false front, accept the true and move on. After sending her home i couldnt take it... I walk all the way home. took me a few hours to reach home but by then my eyes were red with tears.
The following week was living hell to me as i am unable to concentrate on work... I quitted on the same week... Even my boss was shocked... I didnt told her i quit.... We lost contact....