Pathetic me

I am so sad... Few weeks back had a quarrel wif commanders n now i am in bad terms wif my commanders. Dun even bother toking to those pieces of shit. But now even my shift mates started to eat mi. SIGHZ. My duty was taken over 30 mins late. 2nd duty 45mins late. Den kena stall by some air raid drill n had to be taken over 4 hours late for my last duty. Back in camp hope things will be better but who noes... Was actually eaten by more than 40 mins again as our duties finish @ 6.15 !!!!! Haiz.... Reach home @ 8PM when i supposely to go out of camp by 6pm... Wat the hell... Seems like things r in a ruin for mi. Even my comp is acting strange on me. Giving mi some problems now n den. Boring life i leading. Hope to get out of this camp ASAP den i can work till i am shag out everyday. Den i wont think of anyone n wont haf time to think of anyone. Now work is my best buddy. Cos only he can make mi forget everything n anything. I wanna be shag out by work !!!!!! but definitely not duties... God help mi... I am being bullied even though i try to be Mr Nice Guy. Issit only the tough n bad guy survive ? If so shd i revert back ??? Aint tat difficult to turn back to the dark side i once live in. i only fear i wun be able to turn back again.....