Cowardly me !

Wat a lousy place popular is... I haf come to this conclusion after i went to 3 popular n din managed to find the stuff i need ! And wat a unlucky day i had. Went to Cheng San Library to find some books yet i cant find them ! Went to popular n they too din carry the things i wan. In the end i had to made a trip to woodlands regional library but upon reaching there, i realised it a PH n it's closed !!! Made a wasted trip wif my buddy... Feel so paiseh... Made him waste time with me.
Then i saw her... Yes her... Deep down inside i was hoping to see her but din really expect to see her there as she claim she was changing job one yr ago... She had been avoiding my calls/sms... Had a strong urge to go in n say hi to her. MAn was she beautiful even in her uniform... But then i juz stone der... My mouth goes dry and a lump choke up my throat...I took a step back n b4 i knew it i was on a bus home... I had became a coward once a again. Din even had the courage to go in to say hi... I was afraid she will be angry @ me.. Afraid she will quit her job n i will lose all chance of seeing her again... Was afraid she will cry... Was afraid of myself... Din noe wat to do... Wat a failure i have prove myself to be once again... Sigh.... What shd i do my frens ????
I had angered her not once but twice. Now she seems really angry... She had gone so skinny now n kinda break my heart.... she use to have such a good figure but now is so skinny... Haiz... Wat shd i do ??? Shd i approach her ? or shd i juz let go ?
Gimme ur comments frens.....