Sound of Silence and of Waves

Day: Sat
Date : 21/05/2005
Time: 0419 Hrs
Well come back to my blog frens. Well juz went out for a exciting nite and now is back home indulging in the sweet silence of my room. However... the silence only serve to remind mi of a sound which i always crave for whenever i m troubled, happy, sad or for no apparent reason. And tats the sound of the waves beating against the shore line in the wee morning when @ the same time u can feel the cool breeze running thru ur hair.... Well... i had control of the van @ this timing.. yet i cant find a reason to step out of my hse to visit the seaside again. cos deep down i am feeling lonely. How i wish AGAIN i could haf a gf or a close gal fren whom i can go to the beach with to enjoy the songs of the sea n the sayanging of the wind. Y issit tat i cant get a gf... always haf i pondered over this qns.. And i too stubborn in going after the gal i love? AM i wrong to stoopidly wait for the gal i love ? Am i wrong to give my all to the gal i love? Well certainly most people will say i am dumb to do thing for a gal who isnt even ur gf... But i m the sort of guys who goes after gals i know for some time, gals whom i noe i like n whom i noe can click wif mi. I aint the sort tat goes after gals i like @ fers sight n decide along the way if we r compatible.... Tat to mi is way too pointless... Wat haf happen to the game of courtship ? Y people nowadays become BGR only to break off cos they made up their mind too soon ? Y cant we noe each other better than begin a relationship? Am i being too conservative? Am i being too LAO TU ?
I believe i am. Cos even some fren i can trust my life wif is sick of me complaining abt mi having no gf. Sick of listening to one after another failure of mine in getting a gf... Right now.. i no longer trust love... Cos love to me does not exist in this present world anymore. The love that the current generation enjoys is certainly not my type. And i dun believe i will change my idea to suit the world...
Born into the world a loner i am. Remain on this world a loner i shall. Back to heaven a loner i will...